Whoops. It's been 6 months since I've updated this place. Seemed so long ago that I've writted any blog post. Same old same old, flunking all my subjects, and prelims are tomorrow, yet I'm still on the computer. >///< Hope that I'll get an 18 for my L1R5 for Prelims 1. /:
Feeling for him are toned down by alot. Maybe by the fact that we don't even see him, or maybe because when even we see each other accidentally, he treats me as nothing and walks on. Well, me too. But it ain't helping anything~ thats it. Had a random quiz on Facebk, and the results said that my future husband should have initials of JK. Whoops?
&I FOUND A NEW HOTTIEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HIS NAME IS. KIM SEOBANG? KIM TAEWON? JOJWIHWI? WHAT IS IT? NEVERMIND. HE'S DAMN CUTE & HOT! HOPE HE DEBUT SOON!
<: christabel, xoxo
Haven't been posting on blogger for a very long time alr. This blog have, of course, been neglected more. >_< A lot of things happened in the holidays, a lot of mixed feelings, a lot of frustrations. Went to Perth with UG, loved it like crazy, :D Went Bali not long later, freaking hot there.Went out with squadmates a lot during the holidays, and spent the last few days in the library with Jean, and sometimes Dippy, trying to finish all our homework. Which of course, failed. Haha!
First week of school ended, with a huge headache, sore throat, weird soft voice, and an on-off blocked nose which caused me be not able to smell things yesterday, even when i was breathing normally. Freaked me out totally. Got some of my smell? Nose? back today, could finally smell my perfume, but in a muted kind of way. ):What happened! Arghs. Maybe a year of air-con-ed class room would be a death sentence for me, instead of a lux. ):
Promotion test due next Saturday, squadmates said they want to celebrate my birthday on that day too. But it's like, 10 days earlier. X: And Sunday is outing with the Sec 3s. Still deciding whether I want to go or not, for both. Since i didn't go for promotion test, what for i go for the promotion ceromony. >_< And the celebration.. /: &the outing. with Sec 3s niah. King Kong cfm will go also, since the Sec 3s will ask him along. Then will be like, Waikin alr so irritating sometimes, but King Kong is like a fucking irritating person. Plus the incident with Jessy love, it'll be damn akward lorh. Sian.
My feelings for you are still there, which is like a damned stupid thing. If i wait for grad night this year, it'll be 2 years after i first confessed. Wouldn't people think that i'm a total fool? To have hung on to you after such a long time. And to think you had 2 Girlfrs in that period. I'm an idiot.
今天看到你很多次, 可是都是你背影. 我应该再也看不到你对我笑了吧.
我很羡慕她, 应为她看得到你的笑, 而我只可以默默地看着你越来越小的背影.
I realised something. I've lost almost all of my past friends. But the ones that i really loved are the ones that are making me regret the most now. They were the ones that didn't do anything to me, yet i ignored them as well. Well, of course, not the FEs. But still..
I cry and cry at night. Then what happens? Only that my eyes get swollen. But it didn't change anything about the space between you and me. I just wish i had an excuse that i was leaving or something, then gather the last of my courage to say it. But i guess, it'll have to wait till grad night. /: I wish that i could shout to you right now.
My Heart Is Cursing - Kim Dong Wook
"Change is the the only constant thing in this world" - From I forgot who. x_x''
But it's true. Even my feelings for you, are starting to slowly change now. To something milder. Is it a good thing?
